Sober or drunk, it’s always you.
I can feel myself pushing away.. Pushing you away. Do I want that?
But I’m its hard not to. I think about it almost everyday.
You, there’s only one. No one else can ever be you. Thats why this shit is fucking stupid. Yes, there’s distance. Yes, I have these feelings for you. And yes they are more than anything I’ve ever experienced. Your my friend, my best friend. Its like I want to say the word. But you might not say its back. Yes I want to commit, but you might not commit back. If I don’t talk about this I’ll end getting depressed and yeah. That doesn’t usually end well with me.
Look, shes the one. Shes perfect in every way possible. Her jokes, personality is so amazing. She has that perfect sense of humor, she can talk about anything with me. I like how she doesn’t like star wars but I do. But she deals with the bullshit of me always talking about it. I love when she trys to irritate me with obama. I love her gorgeous body and her beautiful face..
I mean I can go on all day of how perfect this woman is.
And let me self fall in… And now I can’t get out I can’t. I tried… Every day this feeling gets bigger and more aggressive. If I could I’d ditch my life right now. Fuck my family and friends. Fuck everyone. I’d give it all up for you. Just to be with you. Only you. No one else. Just you baby. It makes me so depressed. So fucking depressed that I can’t even sleep. I go days without sleep at night because I’m your constantly ripping though my mind.
As much I want to let go.
I can’t because I care to much.
Even if you say goodbye one day I’ll always be here waiting. Waiting for you. Because I’ll never let you go.